Rant: a sequel
Nov. 1st, 2022 08:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cahnSo I have a lot of THOUGHTS AND ALSO FEELINGS about Babylon 5's 5th season (Byron?? Bester! Garibaldi! The Day of the Dead!! Lochley!! Number One!! LONDO. G'KAR. THE REGENT.) but I have just watched "Objects at Rest" and I thought I'd give an update to my previous 5x02 post about Lennier! Because also: LENNIER!
So, to recap for those who haven't just (re)watched S5: since 5x02,
a) Delenn, unbeknownst to Sheridan, secretly meets with Lennier in a bar. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. To send him on a secret mission. That Sheridan also doesn't know about. And asks if Lennier can stay for longer to hang out. And gives him all these girlish yearning looks. And when Sheridan finds out, Delenn is all "But you're the one in the wrong for not sending him in the first place!" gah. All together: OH DELENN NO!
b) Delenn and Lennier end up in a ship together, everyone else around them dies, and they think they're about to die too and Lennier confesses his love. They end up not dying afterwards, and Delenn very nicely makes it clear She Does Not Feel That Way About Him, which is GREAT but which she should have done A SEASON AGO because quite frankly at this point I thought she DID feel that way about him and I expect so did Lennier, and this is so much tougher on him than it would have been if she had done this ages ago.
c) Lennier comes to escort Delenn and Sheridan to Minbar, which comes with him getting to sit through a lot of Delenn and Sheridan being touchy-feely with each other -- I mean, not any more so than your average just-married human couple, they're not bad by human standards, but I imagine by not-very-touchy Minbari standards it's basically the equivalent of them constantly necking in public. All culminating in:
d) after an unfortunate coolant accident, Lennier needs to open a door to save Sheridan. And... he doesn't. (And Sheridan saves himself.)
AS WE ALL KNEW I WOULD SAY, all my sympathy is with Lennier, obviously he shouldn't have done that, but, like, I am still totally on his side because that poor kid, he's been set up for this for the LAST TWO YEARS. I mean, I wish his stress fracture point had been somewhere else that wasn't quite so awful (like, couldn't you just punch him in the face or something? Sheridan could easily have understood and forgiven that, and no, I realize Doylistically that wouldn't have worked), but that there WAS a stress fracture point is just not surprising to me at all. Delenn overloaded him with way too much, emotionally speaking, and wouldn't stop even when he tried his best to get away, and the fuse blew. (To mix my metaphors, I guess...)
Of course I'm speaking from the perspective of knowing, from it coming up vaguely throughselenak's discussion posts, that Lennier was going to do "something," even if I didn't know what, and I wonder if I would have been a lot more WTF if it had come out of the blue like it did for the original watchers. I think it would have shocked me a lot more, but I think I still would have eventually come down on the side of "natural end to what was happening with him." And then again I think it couldn't have quite come out of the blue, because of Morden's prophecy too.
Also, it strikes me as a very Minbari failure mode -- you can just see Lennier thinking, I don't have to do anything, I just don't have to press that button... and that's the same sort of reasoning, or whatever, as the Warrior Caste used when they were like "so we'll just uh drive out the Religious Caste into the freezing cold, that's not actually killing killing them." Or that Delenn uses all the time when she's like "well I'll just not tell John about [insert thing of the week here], it's not like that's doing anything wrong really..."
It broke my heart, and I think it's totally IC, that Lennier (because he really is a good kid who had just one second where he broke) changed his mind and realized he couldn't actually leave Sheridan like that, and he went back for him. Only then it was too late, and now Sheridan doesn't know that Lennier came back to save him, not to finish the job. (Them locking eyes at that point, the scared and hurt look Sheridan gives him, OUCH.) But I'm really glad he did that too. (And my headcanon is that it will give Lennier some comfort, later.)
And then there's Delenn's speech to Sheridan about how you can in one misguided, emotional minute mess up the work of years, and how she really wants him to forgive Lennier, and DELENN YEP WE SEE YOU PROJECTING LIKE AN IMAX THERE.
And all that was great and then she caps it off with "I can't imagine how he's feelign right now," and WELL ACTUALLY I THINK YOU CAN. Or, maybe, you can't, because you never got caught and Lennier absolutely did, and really that's the difference between the two of you, isn't it?
This scene also made me think, afterwards, that Delenn isn't a very good mentor for yet another reason -- we know what a good helpful conversation between SOMEONE WHO'S BEEN THERE BEFORE looks like, we just saw Lochley help Garibaldi with that -- but Delenn, who could have been like, "look, I know what it feels like, I've been there, you KNOW I've been there, except what I did was far worse, you just have to work through it and do what you can," just reverts to her usual "I neeeeeed you Lennier!" which thankfully Lennier does not fall for. (Of course, Lennier might rightfully point out, as above, that she never got caught... but he won't do that, because he will never criticize anything Delenn does, which is a huge part of the problem.) But of course that leaves him nothing to do but self-banish himself, which, ALSO not exactly a great solution, but what else is he gonna do now?
Also, a minor point, but when she's all "so I had Lennier's room searched and read his diary" my first thought was, okay, I realize that Lennier just did a Bad Thing and Delenn is within her rights to find out what happened, but man, that's got to be basically Lennier's second-worst nightmare, the woman whom he's got a super crush on reading his Very Sekret Diary all about how he loooooves her and thinks Sheridan is super not worthy of her.
...I must confess my second thought was, so, Delenn is all "I knew he had feelings for me, but when I read his diary, I was like, whoa!" and, okay, I bet that canonically this is actually just one of those half-truths to Sheridan, but it's more entertaining to think about what could have been IN this diary! is this diary Lennier's Lennier/Delenn RPF?? (and omg HOW embarrassing would THAT be) Is it a lot of "John Sheridan is a poopy-head!"?? I kind of want Lennier's diary in Diary of a Wimpy Kid style...
Lennier just.... really really needs a hug, is what I'm saying. (A PLATONIC HUG NOT FROM DELENN.) (And also this is why everyone should go read my giftfic where he does get a very-much-needed platonic hug not from Delenn!)
I still want the break-it-differently AU where the stress fracture point is that Sheridan is bumbling along saying something he doesn't realize is crass about the Human-Minbari war, and Lennier just up and snaps at him that Delenn started it. I can see why canon couldn't do that, because it would just destroy Sheridan/Delenn, and it would probably destroy Delenn/Lennier much harder than this did, but...
Next up is Sleeping in Light <3
So, to recap for those who haven't just (re)watched S5: since 5x02,
Spoilers up to "Objects at Rest"! Content note for Many Capital Letters!
a) Delenn, unbeknownst to Sheridan, secretly meets with Lennier in a bar. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. To send him on a secret mission. That Sheridan also doesn't know about. And asks if Lennier can stay for longer to hang out. And gives him all these girlish yearning looks. And when Sheridan finds out, Delenn is all "But you're the one in the wrong for not sending him in the first place!" gah. All together: OH DELENN NO!
b) Delenn and Lennier end up in a ship together, everyone else around them dies, and they think they're about to die too and Lennier confesses his love. They end up not dying afterwards, and Delenn very nicely makes it clear She Does Not Feel That Way About Him, which is GREAT but which she should have done A SEASON AGO because quite frankly at this point I thought she DID feel that way about him and I expect so did Lennier, and this is so much tougher on him than it would have been if she had done this ages ago.
c) Lennier comes to escort Delenn and Sheridan to Minbar, which comes with him getting to sit through a lot of Delenn and Sheridan being touchy-feely with each other -- I mean, not any more so than your average just-married human couple, they're not bad by human standards, but I imagine by not-very-touchy Minbari standards it's basically the equivalent of them constantly necking in public. All culminating in:
d) after an unfortunate coolant accident, Lennier needs to open a door to save Sheridan. And... he doesn't. (And Sheridan saves himself.)
AS WE ALL KNEW I WOULD SAY, all my sympathy is with Lennier, obviously he shouldn't have done that, but, like, I am still totally on his side because that poor kid, he's been set up for this for the LAST TWO YEARS. I mean, I wish his stress fracture point had been somewhere else that wasn't quite so awful (like, couldn't you just punch him in the face or something? Sheridan could easily have understood and forgiven that, and no, I realize Doylistically that wouldn't have worked), but that there WAS a stress fracture point is just not surprising to me at all. Delenn overloaded him with way too much, emotionally speaking, and wouldn't stop even when he tried his best to get away, and the fuse blew. (To mix my metaphors, I guess...)
Of course I'm speaking from the perspective of knowing, from it coming up vaguely through
selenak's discussion posts, that Lennier was going to do "something," even if I didn't know what, and I wonder if I would have been a lot more WTF if it had come out of the blue like it did for the original watchers. I think it would have shocked me a lot more, but I think I still would have eventually come down on the side of "natural end to what was happening with him." And then again I think it couldn't have quite come out of the blue, because of Morden's prophecy too.Also, it strikes me as a very Minbari failure mode -- you can just see Lennier thinking, I don't have to do anything, I just don't have to press that button... and that's the same sort of reasoning, or whatever, as the Warrior Caste used when they were like "so we'll just uh drive out the Religious Caste into the freezing cold, that's not actually killing killing them." Or that Delenn uses all the time when she's like "well I'll just not tell John about [insert thing of the week here], it's not like that's doing anything wrong really..."
It broke my heart, and I think it's totally IC, that Lennier (because he really is a good kid who had just one second where he broke) changed his mind and realized he couldn't actually leave Sheridan like that, and he went back for him. Only then it was too late, and now Sheridan doesn't know that Lennier came back to save him, not to finish the job. (Them locking eyes at that point, the scared and hurt look Sheridan gives him, OUCH.) But I'm really glad he did that too. (And my headcanon is that it will give Lennier some comfort, later.)
And then there's Delenn's speech to Sheridan about how you can in one misguided, emotional minute mess up the work of years, and how she really wants him to forgive Lennier, and DELENN YEP WE SEE YOU PROJECTING LIKE AN IMAX THERE.
And all that was great and then she caps it off with "I can't imagine how he's feelign right now," and WELL ACTUALLY I THINK YOU CAN. Or, maybe, you can't, because you never got caught and Lennier absolutely did, and really that's the difference between the two of you, isn't it?
This scene also made me think, afterwards, that Delenn isn't a very good mentor for yet another reason -- we know what a good helpful conversation between SOMEONE WHO'S BEEN THERE BEFORE looks like, we just saw Lochley help Garibaldi with that -- but Delenn, who could have been like, "look, I know what it feels like, I've been there, you KNOW I've been there, except what I did was far worse, you just have to work through it and do what you can," just reverts to her usual "I neeeeeed you Lennier!" which thankfully Lennier does not fall for. (Of course, Lennier might rightfully point out, as above, that she never got caught... but he won't do that, because he will never criticize anything Delenn does, which is a huge part of the problem.) But of course that leaves him nothing to do but self-banish himself, which, ALSO not exactly a great solution, but what else is he gonna do now?
Also, a minor point, but when she's all "so I had Lennier's room searched and read his diary" my first thought was, okay, I realize that Lennier just did a Bad Thing and Delenn is within her rights to find out what happened, but man, that's got to be basically Lennier's second-worst nightmare, the woman whom he's got a super crush on reading his Very Sekret Diary all about how he loooooves her and thinks Sheridan is super not worthy of her.
...I must confess my second thought was, so, Delenn is all "I knew he had feelings for me, but when I read his diary, I was like, whoa!" and, okay, I bet that canonically this is actually just one of those half-truths to Sheridan, but it's more entertaining to think about what could have been IN this diary! is this diary Lennier's Lennier/Delenn RPF?? (and omg HOW embarrassing would THAT be) Is it a lot of "John Sheridan is a poopy-head!"?? I kind of want Lennier's diary in Diary of a Wimpy Kid style...
Lennier just.... really really needs a hug, is what I'm saying. (A PLATONIC HUG NOT FROM DELENN.) (And also this is why everyone should go read my giftfic where he does get a very-much-needed platonic hug not from Delenn!)
I still want the break-it-differently AU where the stress fracture point is that Sheridan is bumbling along saying something he doesn't realize is crass about the Human-Minbari war, and Lennier just up and snaps at him that Delenn started it. I can see why canon couldn't do that, because it would just destroy Sheridan/Delenn, and it would probably destroy Delenn/Lennier much harder than this did, but...
Next up is Sleeping in Light <3
