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Oct. 28th, 2014 07:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cahnWell! So now I can finally talk about why I disappeared from life for a couple of months there. We are going to have a baby! Next March! As far as ultrasounds and cell-free DNA tests (which are kind of awesomely cool, by the way) can tell, he is healthy! And also with a Y chromosome! I… had not realized how much I was steeling myself for this baby not to be healthy until it turned out he was. I feel like I can finally actually be excited about it!
First-trimester nausea really, really sucked this time around (hence the disappearing from life... er... if you asked for a beta in those months, I want to repeat that I am really really sorry for disappearing!). It is possible that there was a psychological component there, stemming from being so done with the first trimester after going through it two times in a year, but man, life is so much better now that that's over with.
I am sort of panicked about having a boy and all the baggage that comes with being a boy. I told D that we'll have to buy some baby dolls for him now (E never got any dolls, although she has a bunch of stuffed animals). One person, whom I very very much like but who definitely has a plethora of unexamined gender assumptions, said to me, "Oh, buying toys for boys is really fun — you can buy them Legos and Lincoln Logs and —" "Um, we… already have all those…" I feel like I have a better handle on girl baggage?
On one hand, E is old enough to do things for herself, which will make things just about infinitely easier with a new baby. On the other hand, it means that I am no longer at all used to not sleeping through the night, changing diapers, teaching a kid how to feed himself and put on his own clothes and… oh man, it's making me tired just thinking about it. What were we thinking again? Oh, right, that E is the cutest thing in possibly the entire universe and that in time maybe, hopefully, if all goes well, we could have a second incredibly cute four-year-old. I hope!
First-trimester nausea really, really sucked this time around (hence the disappearing from life... er... if you asked for a beta in those months, I want to repeat that I am really really sorry for disappearing!). It is possible that there was a psychological component there, stemming from being so done with the first trimester after going through it two times in a year, but man, life is so much better now that that's over with.
I am sort of panicked about having a boy and all the baggage that comes with being a boy. I told D that we'll have to buy some baby dolls for him now (E never got any dolls, although she has a bunch of stuffed animals). One person, whom I very very much like but who definitely has a plethora of unexamined gender assumptions, said to me, "Oh, buying toys for boys is really fun — you can buy them Legos and Lincoln Logs and —" "Um, we… already have all those…" I feel like I have a better handle on girl baggage?
On one hand, E is old enough to do things for herself, which will make things just about infinitely easier with a new baby. On the other hand, it means that I am no longer at all used to not sleeping through the night, changing diapers, teaching a kid how to feed himself and put on his own clothes and… oh man, it's making me tired just thinking about it. What were we thinking again? Oh, right, that E is the cutest thing in possibly the entire universe and that in time maybe, hopefully, if all goes well, we could have a second incredibly cute four-year-old. I hope!
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Date: 2014-10-28 03:20 pm (UTC)Also, yowza, the thought of doing the first tri again within a year makes me want to curl up and cry.
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Date: 2014-10-30 01:01 pm (UTC)I hate first trimester so much!