Uggggh. Yeah, I think even in this day and age where mixed feelings about people are a lot more acceptable and talked about, it's often hard to personally verbalize/admit to those sorts of mixed feelings about someone one really loves, especially if one is a person who hasn't had a lot of practice in self-analysis in general. Then add in an era where it really wasn't acceptable or talked about, and...

That makes a lot of sense about Fritz and Wilhelmine :(